i can't do this shit anymore. i'm seriously thinking about killing myself or atleast going vagrant until i die
i was tryna w8 until i got a girlfriend to run away with but it's not looking good bros
the only people i've been talking to are on r/4tran4 for some goddamn reason, i've had to use a vpn cuz i got banned from reddit 2 years ago so i can't connect to it with my shitty hotspot right now to announce my impending suicide
i think i'm especially suicidal since i've stopped using twitter for the most part, which has been my only coping mechanism since i was like 13
i'm not fulyl prepared to die, but i think i'm fully aware that i'm too far gone at this point
in the back of my mind the imaginary girlfriend swooping in to save me and make quik work of my anal virginity before the double suicide was cope, i'm contradicting myself here, but, i've always been somewhat prepared for death
i'll prolly die with the vriska plush, i have ~26 ubcks on a giftcard i got with the remaining btc in my wallet i'll prolly use it to kepe the domain for a year or two
i'll dump my goddamn futa folder before i go or something man
carve my name into small rodents and mammals and hand them out
see how these next few weeks go
